Paralysis

I sit paralyzed with fear of making a mistake and then being overwhelmed by someone's anger with me. I sit doing nothing, staring into space. I contribute nothing to any job or to my family. My thoughts are racing; I have no control over my mind. My arms and hands tremble from my medication, which stymies me even more from moving. I am isolated, without contact outside my home. Contact would mean stares of death and rage. Better to hide.